Sunday, April 08, 2007

"But I will see you again, I will see you again, a long time from now…"

Do you ever have one of those nights, when you’re driving and just the right song comes on? I had a night like that recently. On a dark and rainy night driving back to Oakville the shuffle of my car stereo chose City and Colour’s, Hello I’m in Delaware. Driving along alone, I couldn’t help but feel the song matched my mood perfectly. Thoughtful, nostalgic, thinking of people I’ve lost. People far away, people I know won’t be coming back. I’ve never been a big believer in the “its better to have loved and lost…” cliché, but I found myself wondering if it were true. After much debate I’m still undecided.


Perhaps this nostalgia comes because I know my life is about to drastically change. In two weeks I will no longer be a student, I will be thrust out into the working world to fend for myself. Obviously I’ve been a student in some form for as long as I can remember. But I’ve also been thinking about the people in my class. We’ve experienced and accomplished great feats and great lessons this year, it will be hard to think of a time when I won’t see them everyday. I wonder if any of these people will stay in my life, and hope that some will.

It just seems that as I transition through certain phases of my life certain people come and go; some go when I wish they wouldn’t. I’ve been fortunate to have a select few, key and quality people remain with me through what can be difficult times, something of which I will always be truly thankful. It is a difficult thing to determine: who will stay with you, and who will go. Some claim their long lasting loyalty and presence in terms like ‘always’ and ‘forever,’ yet I already find myself forgetting them. It’s a shame how people can disappoint at times, that no matter how much you wish that they wouldn’t do exactly what you suspect. But somehow you know they will.

So there goes my life
Passing by with every exit sign
And it's been so long, sometimes I wonder, how I will stay strong
No sleep tonight
I'll keep on driving these dark highway lines
And as the moon fades, one more night gone, only twenty more days

But I will see you again,
I will see you again,
A long time from now

There goes my life
Passing by with every departing flight
And it's been so hard, so much time, so far apart
As she walks the night, how many hearts will die tonight?
Will things have changed?
I guess I'll find out in seventeen days

But I will see you again,
I will see you again
A long time from now

My body aches, and it hurts to sing, and no one is moving
And I wish that I weren't here tonight, but this is my life

But I will see you again
I will see you again
A long time from now

But I will see you again
I will see you again
A long time from now

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

Oh boy great song! One of my favourites from that album, and I can see how it might affect you. But stay strong, and see the future as the light rushing towards you, not the light passing behind.

Jocelyn Elsdon said...

I find myself thinking much of the same as of late...

But I know for certain that you're stuck with me.

You are my person.
~j

Anonymous said...

"Things don't change - we change"

It's difficult to expect your life to be static in topsy-turvy world. So embrace the change in people. Also, I recommend listing to "A Brighter Beat" by Malcolm Middleton. It's excellent.