"So won't you: please please me like you want to, not not like you have to. Oh won't you just go on and leave me, you know leaving me is the least that you could do..."

I’m finding myself very disheartened about this week and its only Monday. I feel like I’ve been trying my damndest with school but that it’s getting me nowhere. Originally when I applied for my program, the appeal of the six-week end of term placement appealed to me greatly. The appeal being the obvious reasons of job experience and the possibility of being hired on, but most importantly being assisted in my pursuit to get my foot in the door (as they say). However, I feel thus far I’ve been let down greatly. The teacher leading our class titled “career management” which I feel is an alias for waste of time, has told us to create a resume and cover letter and start applying. Please tell me what about this I had not realized before she said it? Feeling on our own, my classmates and I have bee applying but I have not met any luck so far.


I also traveled to the CBC again today to meet with Kenton, my widely despised Current Affairs teacher who can’t get away from his busy schedule to teach the class in which he is a) being PAYED to teach while b) being in the building that pays him. He accused my fellow classmate and I of leaving our research to the last minute and having “a lot to do” which I didn’t feel was true of either of us. But this would have been nice to know a month ago if he’d held any actually classes between now and then. Insert image of me smacking my head against a brick wall here.

I’m worried, worried that I will have graduated both university and college with no job prospects, tons of debt and disappoint my family, my father specifically. I feel like I’ve worked hard towards a career that I know with certainty is what I want to do but fear I will never get the opportunity.